You Left Me Alone
Thursday, Feb. 12, 2004 // 6:06 am
I came home from school crying yesterday. Emotions get to me and plus, it's my period time.
Okay, so school ended and I was walking to the bus talking to a girl I know when somebody attempts to throw a snowball. Then the next one hits me in the side of the neck. It didn't hurt but the fucking bastard is going down. If only I could take him down and beat the shit out of him but that doesn't look like it'll happen. His name is Nick, he is like six feet tall and in need of a personality replacement. Every time I'm walking down the hall he either calls me 'slut' or 'whore' and there is no reason!
And it was the snowball thing and everybody name calling me.
In Mr. Haughn's, I went off the ledge when this kid named Adam called me G.I. Jen. I got so sick of it because he just wouldn't stop with calling me that and Testy/Testicle. I was nearly in tears and was working with the assistant and yelled, "Shut the FUCK up!" and I didn't get in trouble. My plan was to run out of the room and into the office.
And I don't even want to go to school today. Too tired and too sick of everybody but I gotta go in the sake of Michael!
I went to church last night and it rocked. Not so much for the God part. Ok, so I've got to start believing. It's just hard to believe some mystical being made the Earth in seven days. Before my ride came for church, I waited in my neighbour's driveway and talked to him. His name is Kyle, he's 17 and he just dropped out of school. We talked about Jeno's frozen pizzas and how this kid in Mr. Haughn's asked somebody if they were going to 'smoke some shrooms'.
A youth leader picked me up. She's way cool. Her name is Colette and the other youth leader dropped me off at my house. We talked about family, custard ice cream, getting made fun of, songs and movies. Her name is Rachel.
Paranoid Android by Radiohead is growing on me.
I'm going to listen to Dark Side of the Moon on the bus.
Someday I'm going to kill all the people who make fun of me at school and Nick is the first one on the fucking list.